What Is Most Precious Today?

“In being with dying, we arrive at a natural crucible of what it means to love and be loved. And we can ask ourselves this: Knowing that death is inevitable, what is most precious today?”― Joan Halifax
“And when the work of grieving is done,
The wound of loss will heal
And you will have learned
To wean your eyes
From that gap in the air
And be able to enter the hearth
In your soul where your loved one
Has awaited your return
All the time.”
― John O’Donohue, To Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Blessings
You never know what a day will bring.
It makes entering and fully engaging even more important and urgent.
One year ago today, the day started ordinary, the rush, obligations, to dos.
All coming to a grinding halt when Mom passed away at the end of the day.
This past year, completely unpredictable and unpreparable.
Grief is a bastard.
Different for each person.
And necessary work, the cost of love.
Never over but changing with time and proximity.
If we do the work well, we transform our grief into a rapt awareness of what’s worthy of our time and attention.
To find and steep in the beauty, laughter, joy and blessings at our feet this day.
As I scrolled through hundreds of photos this morning looking for a picture of Mom, I found this one.
Beer and pizza outside in the midst of pandemic summer 2020.
Big smile, happy, grateful, no matter the circumstances or all of the trials that 86 years brings.
I remember her sayings, mannerisms, toughness, kindness, trying to keep up with her as she bolted with her walker the past few years, generosity, laughter, grit, wanting to be included, interest in others, enthusiasm, light.
Love well today.
And call your Mom if she’s still here and tell her you love her.
If not, go within to your heart and tell her there.
Do not miss this day and those who are before you.
“Let the hard days be hard. When you mourn a person, it’s a form of love. You mourn their loss because they mattered, because the world without them is diminished. Sit still with your grief if you need to, then lift it and carry it with you. KEEP MOVING. Take stock of what you can see in your life now that parts of it are gone: What view has that space created?”― Maggie Smith, Keep Moving: Notes on Loss, Creativity, and Change









