Wildflower Spinning

“God is not a technician. God is an Artist. This is the God who made you. The same God who lives inside of you. He comes into us, then comes out of us, in a million little ways. That’s why there’s freedom, even in the blah. Hope, even in the dark. Love, even in the fear. Trust, even as we face our critics. And believe in the midst of all that? It feels like strength and depth and wildflower spinning; it feels risky and brave and underdog winning. It feels like redemption. It feels like art.”― Emily P. Freeman, A Million Little Ways: Uncover the Art You Were Made to Live

“As we stand at new beginnings and grieve those long goodbyes, teach us what it means to hold on to what we need for the journey and gently let the rest go. Father, you bring new mercies every morning and give us the grace to start over as many times as we might need. Keep pace with us as we learn to keep pace with you. Thank you for not rolling your eyes when we find ourselves here again. Give us the courage to pick what we like and the patience to see how it grows.”― Emily P. Freeman, The Next Right Thing: A Simple, Soulful Practice for Making Life Decisions

A year ago today, I “officially” started my business KP Connections LLC.
Name, legal structure, business model, plan and general direction.
The decision, tipping point, crossing the threshold.
Moving from the hallway between rooms to entering a new room.
Many steps before the decision to leap, one step to leap.
Many steps after and continue to be revealed to this day, tomorrow, the next day too.
It would be months before I announced in July and only a handful of people knew at this point.
Walking beside me through the examination, contemplation, exploration, shaping.
Deeply grateful for those companions, questioners, cheerleaders.
But we ultimately make decisions for our life alone.
Little and big.
Owning that gives us power and responsibility.
To stay, to go, to tolerate, to accept, to reject, to stagnate, to grow, to keep changing, to be changed in the process.
Not deciding is deciding.
We put too much weight on decisions, as if it’s the only step to be made.
Mistakes and missteps guaranteed.
Allowing the path to unfold in the walking out daily is the journey.
It’s the point.
We don’t need everything figured out to start, but we do need to start, taking a step at a time.
To aim, work, go in a direction, follow signs, discern signals, see patterns, pivot when necessary, stay the course, fall, rise, pause, rest, start again and keep moving.
Trusting the process, enjoying the journey.
Work to get to the thresholds before, faith to cross over, more work and trust to walk it out daily with curiosity, enthusiasm, joy.
What we make of it but more importantly what it is making of us.
Many lessons along the way.
What to not do again, what to focus on, what to explore, what to not do at all.
Imperfectly and wonderfully where I belong.
Grateful, awake, unfolding and unfurling.
Still learning, growing, connecting, collaborating, honing, crafting, diversifying, focusing, shaping, creating, making.
Wildflower spinning.

“And so the meaning of our lives is not dependent upon what we make of it but of what he is making of us.”― Emily P. Freeman, A Million Little Ways: Uncover the Art You Were Made to Live